Strange dream about the ex and what it means

THE DREAM

It is nearly 1am. The dream is with me. It was all new, everything I was seeing and experiencing, new people, new friends. I was with a man we were in a shed, I saw a sleeping man in a made up bed on a dirt floor. It was S. I moved away, I didnt want him to see me, I didn't want to see him. But he found me, he settled in next to me, he was curling up in an awkward spot by the fire next to me, he told me to sleep, his presence was so familiar, so loving, I was content.

Sometimes I am so lost.

Went back to bed and had part 2 of the same dream. He put his hand affectionally on my foot and I saw that the back of his hand was deeply lined, I looked closer and those lines turned into criss crossed deep cuts, his shoulders were criss crossed as well. Then the skin all seemed to shrink like criss crossed pork crackle and I woke up.

I don't think he is enjoying life anymore. I think his scars are running deep. I think he misses the familiarity of home. He's been gone seven years.

THE MEANING

At the moment he is looking in the distance,  he wants to move on. But he is in a fools land with his thinking,  he is not seeing clearly,  everything is an illusion. He is fighting little battles, he is struggling with those around him. There will be a sudden change, something will happen, there will be a new beginning. He will be moving to calmer shores,  away from his present environment. The death card tells us that the transformation is complete.

When the cards read in number sequence the meaning changes somewhat. He is in a fools land with his thinking, he wants a new beginning, he is battling with those around him, he moves to a calmer shore but something suddenly happens, a defining moment, but is met with an ending represented by death and he is looking afar to see what is out there.