Are you an Empath?

Do you often feel deeply tuned in to the feelings of people around you? Do crowds make you uncomfortable? Would you (or the people closest to you) describe yourself as a sensitive person?

If so, you may be an empath.

Empaths are those who absorb the world’s joys and stresses like “emotional sponges", they are people who lack the filters most people use to protect themselves from excessive stimulation and can’t help but take in surrounding emotions and energies, whether they’re good, bad, or something in between.

The term empath comes from empathy, which is the ability to understand the experiences and feelings of others outside of your own perspective.

Say your friend just lost their dog of 15 years. Empathy is what allows you to understand the level of pain she’s going through, even if you’ve never lost a beloved pet.

But as an empath, you take things a step further. You actually sense and feel emotions as if they’re part of your own experience. In other words, someone else’s pain and happiness become your pain and happiness.

I will share my story with you in hopes that it will help.

I was going through a tumultuous time in my life. My fiance was drinking heavily, working 3rd shit made us feel distance, my boss was abusive, I was dealing with fear and grief I had not yet released and I was constantly on the go ALL THE TIME barely sleeping. My fiance's ex was angry with us and sent bad vibes our way and really bad things started happening in our home. I lost faith in myself and my abilities and wanted to give up on everything!

Then when I was at work the electric sliding doors would open and close by themselves... ALL NIGHT  LONG... I sought out someone to guide me and answer my questions that were similar to yours. I found guidance from many and this is what I was told.

1. Journal to channel your energy... then burn it... everything you wrote and release your fears to whom ever you pray to... in your case God.
2. If you believe in it you manifest it... both good AND BAD. I was fueling the bad juju sent my way by believing it existed instead of protecting myself and trusting I was safe.
3. I am an energy container. I WAS CAUSING THE DOORS TO OPEN AND CLOSE MYSELF!!! I also caused my cell phone to act crazy, manifested energy beings in my home unintentionally when releasing my anger, and was attracting spirits to me because I wasn't allowing to let my energy flow and become balanced with it. It was insane to think I was that powerful, and still is at times, but multiple Shaman, psychics and empaths have told me the same thing.
4. Not only was it my energy I couldn't control but it was also the energy of others I was absorbing that I couldn't control. Because I am empathic I was absorbing the negativity and energy of those around me and cramming it into an already bulging energy container that was causing myself to feel chaotic and making me feel like I needed to run away from everything... INCLUDING MYSELF and what made me me... ie. Tarot, reiki, meditation, intuition, etc.

Deep belly breathing, meditation, and diving deep into my shadow work is the only thing that has helped me. It had been 6 months and although I still make electronics and lights go crazy when I am angry I am able to recognize it and calm myself and control it. 

I hope this was helpful for you

Strange dream about the ex and what it means

THE DREAM

It is nearly 1am. The dream is with me. It was all new, everything I was seeing and experiencing, new people, new friends. I was with a man we were in a shed, I saw a sleeping man in a made up bed on a dirt floor. It was S. I moved away, I didnt want him to see me, I didn't want to see him. But he found me, he settled in next to me, he was curling up in an awkward spot by the fire next to me, he told me to sleep, his presence was so familiar, so loving, I was content.

Sometimes I am so lost.

Went back to bed and had part 2 of the same dream. He put his hand affectionally on my foot and I saw that the back of his hand was deeply lined, I looked closer and those lines turned into criss crossed deep cuts, his shoulders were criss crossed as well. Then the skin all seemed to shrink like criss crossed pork crackle and I woke up.

I don't think he is enjoying life anymore. I think his scars are running deep. I think he misses the familiarity of home. He's been gone seven years.

THE MEANING

At the moment he is looking in the distance,  he wants to move on. But he is in a fools land with his thinking,  he is not seeing clearly,  everything is an illusion. He is fighting little battles, he is struggling with those around him. There will be a sudden change, something will happen, there will be a new beginning. He will be moving to calmer shores,  away from his present environment. The death card tells us that the transformation is complete.

When the cards read in number sequence the meaning changes somewhat. He is in a fools land with his thinking, he wants a new beginning, he is battling with those around him, he moves to a calmer shore but something suddenly happens, a defining moment, but is met with an ending represented by death and he is looking afar to see what is out there.